This boy has been broken but never shattered. Many have tried to destroy him but he never allowed them. Many have mistreated him, many have used him, and many have ridicule him but he never gave in. He has never given up. He has never allowed his enemies to prevail. Why? Well because he's still strong even when he feels like there's nothing left of him. He refuses to give up and continue to persist on. He doesn't know what tomorrow holds for him but he does know that no matter the obstacle he will get through it. This boy is me.

Officially Missing You.

She sings my emotions and feelings all to well.

It's only a memory.

What does my tattoo mean?

It really does explain itself, but of course there's a story behind it. "It's only a memory" is what is tattooed on my chest. I sorta got it for someone but more for myself, it is my body. Well memories are all we have of the past; the good, the bad, and in between. But the memories that are remembered here are of you. And those are memories I don't want to lose. You are the one; my love. Memories of our time spent together are priceless to me. If and when that day comes where we aren't in a relationship, I am willing to accept it because I love you. -That to me means true real love. I have never felt love like this EVER before and my mind and heart understand the real meaning of love now. I wish I could explain this better. But yeah, basically it's only a memory of what WE; were, are, and will be.

I get Valentine's Day...

I never really understood Valentine's Day until now, well for me at least.. Your Valentine is suppose to be your one true love. Right? I realized who I really, I mean REALLY love, and I understand what love is now. I had a thought. -If we were to somehow not be in a relationship I would uinderstand. I would let go because I have love for you and we must set love free sometimes. I totally understand that. All those types of songs about "letting your one true love go & stuff", I hella understand now. Real shit, I've never felt the way I do for you with anyone else. You are my one true love; You are my Valentine.

"The most important thing is to understand that this is a turning point and you would be wise to push for what you want."
-From my horoscope. I HEARD THAT!

I'm thinking of you, I can't wait to see you again. Only a few more days until valentines day. I'm excited to spend it with you. At least that's what I planned. I miss the way you push up on me and kiss me. How at night we sleep hugging each other, watching you sleeping so peacefully. I love it, you were so cute when you fell asleep on me and drooled every where. I was like oh my, your drool is all over my arm and on your face. No worries tho because I wiped it off and I remember you kind of smiled and went back to being asleep. I miss being next to you just to be where you are, makes me happy. You said you were being a bum that day, I was fine with it. We all have those moments where we just wake up hop on the computer, eat something, and chill. It didn't bother me, no worries. Everything from your hair, that smile, those lips, those ears, that face, your arms, your hands. I especially miss that voice, it's different when you're with me. And how you wrestle me around and tickle me. I miss that, I miss you. What more do I have to say? I just want you to know how special you are to me, but sometimes I don't always know how to show it and can't work up the nerve to always tell you.

what i want.

i want someone...
who would shove ice cream in my face.
who will wrestle with me.
who shows me off to his friends and family.
who treats me with respect.
who will cook for me,
just to prove that he's better at it.
who will call me at four in the morning,
to tell me he can't stop thinking about me
who sings to me, even if he can't.
who could break my heart,
but wouldn't dream of it.