Sunday, January 31, 2010

what i want.

i want someone...
who would shove ice cream in my face.
who will wrestle with me.
who shows me off to his friends and family.
who treats me with respect.
who will cook for me,
just to prove that he's better at it.
who will call me at four in the morning,
to tell me he can't stop thinking about me
who sings to me, even if he can't.
who could break my heart,
but wouldn't dream of it.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Libra horoscope, free daily horoscopes for Libra

Libra horoscope, "Wednesday, Jan 27th, 2010 -- You may face a stressful dilemma when the hypersensitive Cancer Moon aspects several planets today. At first you might have attempted to make light of what you endured. Now, however, your defenses are too strong for anyone to break through. You'll feel better if you work more on letting others into your heart and less on trying to look good."


SO TRUE. I need to let other into my heart and less on trying to look good.
He is a cancer and we got into a small fight tonight. Sorry, I love you. I didn't mean to upset you.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Naked.

You know what’s the most terrifying thing about admitting that you’re in love? You’re just naked. You put yourself in harm’s way and you lay down all your defenses. No clothes, no weapons. Nowhere to hide, completely vulnerable. The only thing that makes it tolerable is to believe the other person loves you back and you can trust them not to hurt you.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Love..

Love is such a strong word. When we were just little kids, we always thought that love was about hugs, kisses and happiness. But as we grow older, we’ve also come to realise that love isn’t just about happiness; it’s also about rejections, tears and riding through the pain that each heartache brings.

I miss you.

I miss you, I think of you all the time these days. I miss your voice, your face, your beauty never cease to amaze me. I love you.

Starting to Doubt..

Idk any more guys. I need to know how he truly feels about me now. I have NEVER felt like this before, for ANY guy. That’s how much he means to me. Call me dumb but sometimes you really can’t help but fall in love. I want us to have a good thing going on, a real relationship. And I want things to be clear. I totally trust him, but there’s a slight lack of communication. That one day where you said, “we’ll work on this later.” I’m still waiting babe. I want to get us on the right path & be on the same level. A relationship doesn’t work without the two key components; 1.trust & 2.communication. Ever since day one, I’ve been loving you & have not stopped. I don’t know what it is you need? Please tell me so I can make this work right. All I want to do is put a smile on your face, make you happy & love you. I need to know more because our daily conversations don’t really help me. I know you don’t use the word “love” but I can feel it, when we’re together its undeniable and you know that. Sometimes I just wish you would show it more. I hate sounding needy because I so don’t want to be. Sorry if I am, love does this. Sad for me to even mention this but if you break my heart, it truly is going to kill me. I love you, I won’t ever hate you. Even if we aren’t together at the end of the day, I still love you. That’s how strong my love is for you. You got me hooked on your love, yes you do. When I’m with you, I get so high & feel that my life is almost complete. Lame as it sounds, I’m being honest. What more must I say?.. I’ve done quite a lot for us in the period of time if you think about it, but I’m not like that, I don’t need to be credited & have every single action acknowledged. I just hope you appreciate it & show me that you appreciate me. You really are beautiful and one of a kind, no doubt in that. I will do anything for you & I never say that, never. So what’s holding you back? I need to know for the sake of our relationship. Maybe you think everything is fine.. But you do know; I love you.
-A.P.

Monday, January 18, 2010

How do I feel? I just want to tell you but am to afraid & it might come out wrong.
I really like you & I think you know that already. You barley know me, but let's get to know each other. That's what I want to do. I have so much feelings for you and I like how I feel for you. Why is it so hard for me to tell you that? Will you give me a chance? Sorry if I like you, I can't help but fall in "love" with you. I only hope you feel as much & the same for me. I want to take a chance with you. I don't want to lose the way I feel about you but it gets hard when we aren't even talking. I want us to be on the same level so you can understand how I feel. When we are together I feel complete. I want to know how you feel about me, but I somehow can't find the courage to ask. Please don't break my heart, its truly going to kill me. I never felt this way before about anyone. Never..
I wonder why me? But everyone should ask that to themselves. There's always a reason. It may seem like there isn't one at times but there really is, we just haven't figured out why yet. I'm slow figuring it out day to day. As we all are. Its life, we make what we can of it & try to be the best we can be. What lesson are we learning? Could it have happened at a better time or is it happening now? A wise person said its better to learn from another's mistakes & try not to do the same. But most times it doesn't work that way because we have to experience it ourselves & learn. It happens once it happens again. You haven't learned. So until we learn we can become a better person.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

It's happening again to me. I'm in love with someone but this time around its different. Its going to kill me if it doesn't work. I have a lot of feelings for him like no other. I hate it because he makes me nervous and how am I supposed to open myself up if I can't even be myself. This really sucks. Ever since the new year we've been talking and I want this to last. One night out of the week being with you isn't enough. Sorry I'm a needy person.
I understand how my friend felt when he just ran away from home just to be with someone you truly love. And love will do that. I honestly want to just pack up and move closer, just to be with him even if I'm broke as fuck. I hate it because all I want to do is be with him. But when I'm with him, what the fuck are we going to do. Just sit there and be together. Its dumb. I hate how emotions fuck with me. I'm honestly in love with him & it drives me crazy. I hope fate keeps us together. I have a feeling that we were meant to be together. It's really interesting how we met, or kinda crazy actually. But if certain actions and events we're to never take place we would have never met nor be together. I'm glad what happened did happen because it makes fate & destiny more believable.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

formspring.me

No offense, I always wondered if you were gay. Are you?

Yeah I am gay, offense non-taken.

Ask me anything

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Tuesday, January 12, 2010

a photo can say a thousand things.

A photo can say a thousand things but it can’t say the million things I want to say. A photo can capture the way we were but it can’t capture the way we are cause you’re far away.