discontent

the way i feel right about now.. yep, discontent. great things have happened quite recently but yet i still don't feel happy. i wonder what the heck it is that is going to change this mood? i feel so incomplete. i think that's what i was getting to. i feel as if someone just tore a huge chunk out of me and the hole is only getting bigger. wtf is going on with my emotions? i can't even figure it out myself. lame! -_- but here's a quote i read earlier and this is keeping me sane.

"I’ve learned this past year. I’ve changed, I’ve grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don’t. but no matter what, they still happen. That’s what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There’s nothing I can do to change that. I’ve learned to go with my gut, and that it’s okay to make mistakes because the ones that matter, won’t care. I’ve learned that love really is as great as they say it is. I’ve learned that your friends can save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I’ve learned that today is all we have.”

-just going off that makes me feel some what better. trying to stay positive and make shit happen!